Thoughts at 3:30 am

So it's 3:30 in the morning now and, for some reason I can't fall asleep. I say 'for some reason,' but I know exactly why...I can't stop thinking about her.
Yes, her. She who will remain nameless, though I'm sure she knows perfectly well who she is.
Have you ever found yourself in a situation where you've wanted something or someone so deeply but - for one reason or another - you just can't have it/him/her? Yeah, that's exactly the predicament in which I currently find myself. I've spent a lot of time with this girl, and I feel like I want more than just a friendship with her. I even have to consciously stop myself from reaching over for her hand or rubbing her back or playing with her hair. These sound like simple gestures, but it's often the simple gestures that carry with them the greatest importance.
I know what you're asking yourself: "
Well, why doesn't he just tell her how he feels?" I have, my friend...I have...you see, she's not ready. Her heart's been broken and she's not ready to give it freely to another man.
Understandable.
Whether she believes it or not, she is beautiful. She is amazing. She is funny, brave, and strong. I know she doesn't believe me, but one day she will.
Maybe.
To her, I have but one thing to say: I'll be here when you're ready.

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